An open letter to my fiancé

Until I saw you first, love, at first sight, was just an overrated phrase for me.

“When I saw you I fell in love, and you smiled because you knew.”

From the moment we first met to this day, if there is one thing that has always been constant is love, care and excitement & the fear of the unknown. I was single and likely to stay single until I didn’t meet you. Going back in time, from the day I saw you first, stared into your eyes and dived deep into your soul to the day when you said yes whilst I rolled the ring into your beautiful finger, everything appears to me as a fairy tale. Time has never passed so fast. This is, by all means, the best time of my life. It’s like I have got everything I ever asked for. A partner for life, a best friend and my partner in crime. I have never felt luckier.

I’ll be lying if I say I am not scared. I’ll be lying if I say I am ready. I’ll be lying if I say this is what I planned for. I’ll be lying if I say I believed in marriages. I’ll be lying if I say I want to settle down.

I don’t.

I am scared but I know perfect love drives out all fear. I am not ready but the idea of being with you looks just perfect. I never planned for this but you are the best thing that happened to me. I don’t believe in marriages until I met you. I don’t want to settle down and with you along I just want to stargaze and see the clouds pass by in slow-mo.

“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, every day. You and me… every day.”
― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

No matter how long we dated and how long we have been together, I want you to know the real me. I want you to learn the deepest and darkest secrets of my short life so far. I know you are more scared and confused. I understand you are very unsure and it’s perfectly fine to be.

I want to start the journey of my life from the very bottom, with you. I want to reach the pinnacle of this journey only with you. I want to eventuate a haphazard journey and travel through the length of the roads and flow of the rivers, take a road as it comes by without any pronounced destination. Only with you.

I want to stargaze with your hands in mine and keep looking at them till eternity. I want to play those eye contact games with you until I lose. I want to listen to you, talk to you and look at you for my entire life. I want to travel the globe and walk across all the roads with you by my side. I want to trek to the highest mountain and dive to deepest trench only with you. I want to dance in rain and kiss the sun with you in my arms. From dining in at Michelle’s to enjoying the roadside food, I want to devour all the scrumptious and stupid food only with you. From the extreme sadness to the times of super duper happiness, I want to cherish all of it only and only with you. From luxurious life to making this world a better place to live, I want to achieve all this only with you. From realising my dreams to live the life you always dreamt of, all this only with you.

I am honoured to have you by my side. I am elated with the idea of spending my entire life with you. Thank you for holding my hands, I swear to life, I will keep them safe forever. Thank you for loving me once, mark my words, I will love you for life. No matter what, no matter where, no matter when, you can always count on me. Go ahead and win the world, and whenever you’ll turn back, I’ll be there, as your strongest pillar of support.

We fight a million times. At times you are disappointed with the way I think and at times me. At times I hurt you so much and sometimes you do. I apologise for all the times I made you feel so bad. And we will fight a million more times. I know and I am very sure about it. I can’t promise we won’t fight. But I can promise I will never give up on you. NEVER. I promise after every fight and post all disagreements, you’ll still find me poking your cheeks and irritating you. Despite all this, I promise I won’t let a night of loneliness creep into our lives. I promise every day will be a new day. I promise I’ll be there if you need a glass of water at 3 AM. I promise I’ll be there to hold you and cuddle you whenever you have been through a bad dream. I promise I’ll love you. I’ll love you till my last breath.

There can be no deep disappointment where there is not deep love.

We are different. Very different. And that’s the most beautiful part of our relationship. We complete each other. We compliment each other. While you are full of life, I am an introvert. While you are a shopaholic, I am a miser. While you believe in investing in experiences, I believe in investing. While I forget everything post-fight, you keep a manual in your head (every woman I guess). I have learned so much from you. You make me a better person. I have not travelled this much my entire life as I did in just one year. And I had the best time of my life.

“A great marriage is not when the ‘perfect couple’ comes together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differences.”
– Dave Meurer

We are very similar as well. We both are demanding. We both love each other like there is no tomorrow (I am sure you do). We both love travelling. We love eating, sleeping and lazying around. We are ambitious. Both of us want to make this world a better placed to live. We love to teach. And last, hold on, both of us love to kiss ;)

Thank you for the all love, happiness, care and the surprises. Thank you for parking your heart in mine. Trust me, that’s the safest place for it to be in the entire universe. Thank you for trusting me for your happiness. Thank you for all the songs. Thank you for the most meaningful conversation of my life. Thank you for all the learnings, experiences and adventures. Thank you for all the surprises. Never, I was so excited for anything as much I am for you. Thank you for completing me. Together, we will win the world.

“When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.” — When Harry Met Sally